Feeling overwhelmed…
Anxious too…
Stressed maybe, not so much stressed as much as overwhelmed
As in there is a lot to be done and I just have no clue where to start
My cousin was buried this weekend and I couldn’t get away to attend the funeral. It’s true we weren’t close but I still wish I was able to be there for and with my family.
In the meantime, I’m preparing a major transition and it’s more demanding than I expected to be.
Nights and days my mind is occupied with how to structure, how to face this transition. Who can do what, what has been done, what must be done, when are my deadlines, what did i miss?
Overwhelming is the only word that comes to mind.
I come here looking for the comfort that these pages usually bring. Offloading my thoughts, my cares, etc. on to a blank sheet of paper. Isn’t it so interesting how light a sheet of paper is but how heavy the burdens it bears can be in contrast?
Anxiety in anticipation? Yes
Exhaustion? Not really. Mentally? maybe yes in the sense that I’m kinda tired of thinking of the same things over and over again.
I’ve already written so much but I’ve barely really said anything.
It’s like the thought that wants to be communicated is still locked up somewhere within me I don’t yet have access to. It’s like opening every room in a house looking for something you will only know when you see it.
the funny thing about being overwhelmed is that, it is precisely when you are overwhelmed that you do not feel like doing anything.
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